Faith, Hope and Love

I had a bad day yesterday and decided I had to get out of here, no matter what. I decided to go look at apartments and flats. I told the case worker at IHN that I was going to do it, and she seemed very negative about it. She asked me if I'd done the paperwork, meaning figured out how much money I need and put it up against what I'm making. I said no, that I was just going to look, but that I intended to get out of here. She still seemed apprehensive at best. The program director came in then and said that there was new grant money coming in on Tuesday the 27th, and that we were to be eligible for it. She can offer to pay a portion of our rent. I can really move out of here now. I've already saved $1000.00 and have three different sources of funding for the security deposit. This would actually be a fourth.
I'm so hopeful and excited. I probably should be afraid something may fall through, so that it doesn't hurt as much if it does, but I can't do it. It's just not in my nature to be guarded. And I really believe it's going to happen soon. I don't even care what kind of place it is, as long as it is my own place and I can sleep in my own bed again. I hope to have a bunch more news soon. Tuesday is also the day we go to Social Services and have a showdown with my worker. I plan to have nothing but good news that day. Now I just have to find a second job...